心语

平静的假期突然在前天让人丢下了一颗巨石，起了几个大浪，心湖被淹得满满地，透不过气。虽然上帝说不需要在意世人的眼光，只要做好在上帝眼光认为对的事情。但是当事情发生时，真的会让人担心是否会让身边的人以有色眼光看自己。毕竟在这世上要过的日子说长不长，说短也不短，若是让人杯葛，平凡的我不见得有足够的智慧和勇气去面对。

一直以来我都害怕被人误解，甚至讨厌被误会，那种无辜、怎么解释都讲不明的感觉真的好像自己被孤立，心里非常彷徨、无助。通常在这样的时候，我会莫名的暴躁，对不相信我的人发脾气，甚至根自己生闷气。显然，这一次的遭遇比被人误解更让人心痛，我竟然被我不认识的人诬赖。真不知是谁遭惹谁，硬生生被人说得自己很缺德。事情到底有多复杂到现在我还搞不清楚。只觉得要生活在这样的一个世界，似乎对人的信任真不是一朝一夕，即使最亲近你的人都可能出卖你，更何况是别人。突然，天空变得好灰。

还好，我还是得到朋友的信任。是的，当人与人之间还存在着那么一点点相信，或者说理智，哪怕是单方面也足以让原本失去的信心慢慢被找回。相信能让真相明朗化，理智可以看清事实！感谢我的朋友对我的信任，还为了我的困惑为我解释。虽然他还没看清诬赖我的人的真面目；虽然诬赖我的人仍然那么讨厌我，至少我知道我不是被孤立的。而且，我并不讨厌他。只是为他的作为感到悲哀。当一个人被怒气冲昏头的时候竞然可以这么蛮不讲理、不可理喻！若将来有一天他再回首现在所发生的一切，是否会觉得幼稚可笑呢？若是他在世界的焦点弄对了，是否会觉得自己太庸俗呢？

也许，我也应该学会忍耐和坚强。“还好。。。 ” 和 “早知道。。。”之间只是一念之差。在这件事情上，我是还好得到朋友的信任才得以忍耐和坚强面对；若是以早知道朋友对我信任的心态而忍耐和坚强面对，事情是不是可以简单一些。凡事从自己开始去影响别人，总比被别人影响来得正面积极。

当然！就事论事，“还好。。。” 和 “早知道。。。”从另一个观点上又可以有不同的意义。感恩的人通常都说“还好。。。”，这显然是正面的想法；相反的，消极的人常说“早知道。。。”，“早知道这样，就那样。。。”还得看你怎么看代呢！

不管怎么样，这件事情会在我的记忆里一直反复着，至少这几个月都会。就让它一直提醒我,生活在这个世界所要学会的功课吧！ 信心：忍耐：坚强

Colossians 3:2

Yesterday I went out for breakfast together with my grandma. While we were waiting for the traffic light, the siren from an ambulance from far back catched our attention. In a blink of time, the ambulance reach to the back of the queue. With tacit understanding, every vehicles moved their cars to aside to let the ambulance moved on, eventhough they were in queue and there were limited space to move. While my car was in another lane from moving, the phenomenon touched my heart.
Often, in today's hectic lives, what capture human's soul are wealth, fame and status. They would head to what they want regardless of the consequences. Families, friends and health are sacrificed; pride, corruption and flatter are their tools.
Bible said : Set your mind on things above, not things on the earth (Colossians 3:2) Deplorably, what most people do today are in contravention with the verse. If only more people are willing to slow down their pace of lives, looking at the great creations of God, pondering about the purposes of lives, the meaning of eternity; will there be less criminality?
I do hope that yesterday, I was not the only one be moved by the scene. At least, that means there still a little sensation among the nonchalances.

GoodBye Jackie ~

Little Jackie became little sheep after hair cut by his personal hair dresser.

It's 2 months ago, when Jackie went off from home and gone somewhere. I really hope that he's living happily with a new family. wishing you the best, Jackie!

我的志愿是医生？

有生以来，第一次经历天旋地转、天昏地暗的感觉。每一次听说某人晕倒了，或某某昏了，都以为只是眼前一黑，咻！就不省人事了。原来晕倒也有分阶段的！昨天陪弟弟去医院因跌断了手复诊。医生检查了一番，不太满意骨头的生出情况。结果要求矫正骨头位置。我天真的以为这应该是简单的任务。没想到。。。它真的是这么简单！问题是，过程却不是普通的难挨。。。只见专业医务人员看着X-Ray的图绘，摸摸弟弟的骨头，就用力一扭一挽，再摸一摸又是一扭！简直就像电影里头的残杀镜头里其中的手段！ 天啊！当时在身旁的我看见这种情况，还有弟弟痛得透顶却不闷一声的画面，只觉得全身的血液直往大脑里冲，四肢开始不听使唤。接着房间里似乎像闪电般在我努力想平复下来之时一暗一亮地，这就是人家所谓的眼前一黑吗？之后身体里开始起化学作用，感觉就像两种互相排斥的化学液体参在一起沸腾，胃里有限的空间根本负荷不了那多余的气体和澎湃，一颗胃袋在身体里翻腾几乎跳出来。这时，整个病房的每一个人都专注在弟弟身上。我也尝试不让大家发现我的不妥。尽量深呼吸来让自己恢复正常。结果不但没有用，反而像是把更多的空气吸入肚子里加速沸腾。到最后，不争气的我把肚子里的化学结晶品呕了出来。坐在一旁休息了好一阵才慢慢地平复下来。这个突如其来的经历让我不禁恍然并在内心感谢主没让我当上医生。从来人都是对血淋淋的画面感到毛骨悚然，而我却对一个看不见的伤痕起化学作用。心里也暗暗对自己承诺要好好照顾自己的身体，以免有一天历史重演的主角是我，真不敢想象我该怎么办！！

I did that!! Nice?

Exam!!! =)

Wee hee... I started with my first paper today! alright, I am happy not because that I can do well in this paper. It's because... finally the day comes. It's been a long week, with everyday more than 10 hours facing the books, notes, and the abc... oh gosh!! I am choked... by the letters!

So now, I done with my first paper. Take a nap, struggle another 10+ hours for tomorrow... and then repeating the same procedures for the following day! that is!! Done with my mission here.

What makes me so excited is the day after this, I am going back Home!! yeah yeah... it's been 2 month away from my sweetest and warmest home. I was wondering why am I having such a severe homesick this time. I tried before with longer period of time away from my home without missing my papa, mama, popo and bros... what makes me change this time?

Anyway, that's not the important point here! who cares about the reason, as long as I can GO HOME!!!

* All the Best everyone & Happy Holiday for those who finished*

heh!!

This is what i did during my revision o_O

Don't comment or laugh too much coz this is my first time to do with computer software... I am totally an amateur... heh!!

2007 in my Cubicle!!

...3... 2... 1... Happy New Year!!

I am forced to study in my own room during this memorable moment.

Do something special before the end of 2006?
Yea... Study
Do something fabulous during the first moment of 2007?
Study... again!
Make a wish before the irreplaceable 2006 becoming history?
Abundant wisdom, efficient and effective in my revision
Make a wish for this wonderful coming 2007?
Score the exam with flying colours without too much suffer

It's all about exam and study... for my 2006 and 2007